Positive consciousness in the world

Lately, I have had the pleasure of being told what is scary, what is evil and what is real in the world today that we think does not exist. I don't know if the rest of you believe in the devil or God, each to their own. However, from what I see, hear and feel in this world; the spirit in which we thrive from within this planet we call Earth is completely out of whack. So much negativity is surrounding us from the middle eastern wars; the cop killings in America; Isis terrorist attacks; drug mules becoming more frequent; disappearances leading to murder occurring (even in New Zealand); a rise in suicide; a rise on pedophilia and rape; child slave/sex labour; dodgy dealings going on with youth over the internet, to unfair sentencing for crimes that have hurt people in 'GENERAL' It's all negative and it feeds our minds and hearts with the negativity that is unconsciously shared to others.

There has to be a time when we choose to say ENOUGH! Enough of the negative. Enough of the sadness, the killings, death, attacks and just plain evilness. I live in a world where my 'Light' even though it may be small is going to shine so bright like this song

My mind is receiving so much negativity that it can make me tired just trying to be positive day by day. Moments of when I'm frustrated or angry or just plain lost in hope. Breathe, Think of the positive light that is shining in this time of negativity and help it grow. Just like a plant needs nourishing by water, nutrients and light... That is what I aim to do as much as I can. There is an amazing woman who whenever I feel out of whack, seems to post the right quotes at the right time. 

 ' Focus on what you have instead of what you don't have. On what's right in your world instead of what's wrong. On where you're going instead of what you've been through'.

This may be common knowledge to you all but it's easy to forget these little things when we live our daily life....
Keep living, keep breathing, keep sending out that light of positive consciousness into this world.
Most of all, love. Love everything in your environment.
Blessings x

Extremity of life and moving forward.

The beginning of 2016 has lead me through a multitude of extremities. 
Those of extreme anger and sheer frustration to the point of violence actually being used!
Extreme fear and doubt stored into mind making me hold myself back from moving forward..
I have also experienced the extremity of loving too much and not holding back causing me to say or do too much bringing a negative effect into place. 
My mind has been in constant turmoil as of late because of this feeling like I can't balance and control my own outcomes anymore..
My sense of being on track has flown out the window because of the extremities that I have been faced have dealt an impossible blow to my ego. 
My ego has been my pride because without I have felt like a plastic empty egg shell. 
I'll be honest. I have been trying to keep up with my true self for a long time and somehow, I have dropped my plate. My hands have decided to let go of this plate I carry every single day with it's load and all my hands want to say is. FUCK IT! It's over.... Why continue doing this? Why struggle? Just give in! 
It's been hard having to build myself back up from all the blows I've had this year. Each one giving me a hard life lesson to learn. But learnt I have.
If there is one thing that these extremities have taught me. It is this. You will face the same situation over and over again until you can get it right without causing any negative infliction back onto yourself, anyone or anything else and your inner you.

My extreme anger and frustration have repeated itself in so many scenario's that I have had to come to terms with this issue. Each time I have made progress, I falter somewhere else. After the many attempts on learning to control my anger now, I just finally walk away.... Learning that no matter how much someone or something tries to drag me back to where they are at that point. I just have to walk away. For the peace and sanity of me. 
Fears and doubts have been a bit of a battle to try and overcome but I will get into the deep of this later on down the track. The key for me to keep going through fears and doubt is knowing that the real truth behind any accusation to yourself is what let's you know that it's not real. The problem of holding onto it let's you know that yes it takes time to let things go. The more you face it the easier it is to let things go.... A dear friend and work colleague of mine has been a true blessing for me this year in helping me understand these little helpers in life. In regards of letting things go she gave me a mantra. It goes
I release
I let go
I release and I let it go
I let go of anger
I let go of tension
I let go of sadness 
I let go of guilt
I let go of old limitations 
I let go of things said and done
I am peace
I am at peace
I am at peace with myself, others and my surroundings.
I am at peace.
Breathe...
My loving too much has left me introverted sometimes that I hermit crab myself towards everyone else and my partner. It makes me think about how much I am mothering and smothering too much and yet when I let go nothing ever happens. Just let go.... the outcome of others is NOT your responsibility anymore. As much as you care for others you care for you. Others have to face their own failures in their own way.
So where to from here? Slowly but surely I have picked up the pieces of my plate that I have dropped and THROWN it into the BIN! No point keeping that broken plate. Start with a new one. Upload what you think is more important onto your plate and hold fast to it. Once it starts piling up scrap what you think is not important anymore off. Hold on to the main things that are key to your life right now. I am balancing full time work and it's load of systematical things. My home life where I try to devote time to my partner and still try cook dinners and help him keep the house tidy. I am also studying through correspondence as well. Anatomy and physiology. I have never been good with science yet, what I want to achieve I need to study health. It's mind boggling at the best of times but persevere and limit my plate as much as I can so I have enough mental capacity to hold it together. Remembering that when I come across these extremities to make sure that when I deal with it. It has a positive outcome for me others and my inner me..

As I have written this I feel more at ease and peace within myself. And definitely focused as well. 
Thank you and bless you